I just realized, that I have old soul living in my young body ! Bastard, he is responsible for my gray hair. Well him and the ex-girlfriend of course. But now, I know why there is the struggle in my life. Those two are fighting over the control and sometimes they are like coalition government. Lots of noise but no clear direction and no responsibility at all.

Depending on the situation, I like them in charge sometimes. Like for example coming home from GP i.e doctor. Well actually from friend / doctor as we are more jovial friends than just doctor / patient. We discus life, families, tragedies and comedy of life and strangely he listen to all my crap. He must be good. No, no seriously, he is very good doctor, he is the best I have to say. Believe me, there were few other doctors trying to kill me, but he is the only one trying to heal me and behold, he is succeeding. Even after nearly dying in the hospital ‘mind you private top one in Dublin’ he was the one who get me back on my feet . Anyhow now you see, this was the old soul being in control telling the story. Moaning about himself and his life miseries, clearly old fart.

Where was I….. ? Ahh yeah coming home from doctor, better said pharmacy actually as from the GP I went to get my fix in the pharmacy. If the young body was all well and not sick, thing could be different now. Well the point of this story is that I was glad, that the old souls was in charge then. After leaving the Pharmacy I had so much stuff in my paper bag that if I was stopped by Gardai / Police,  I would be done for drug dealing, So old soul was slow driver and careful not to rise suspicion as Clint in ‘The Mule’ movie.

But now and then the young body win the battle and take over the whole control. How do I know that….? Well that is easy, as it is start babbling some gibberish in some blind hope to get attention. The main fact is that I, aka my higher self, observed this behavior or win of young body over old soul only in one situation. This situation is clearly observable when the young or relatively young and beautiful or relatively beautiful female species are around. The other day I had to let old soul step in the control room and take over as the young body was making a fool of me.

So now I kind of agree with the premise of Dr Jekyll  & Mr. Hide but I think that the starting agent is the nature trap for men, female species. This female species called posibilituscoitus has many strange effects on men, even prior the direct contact with this dangerous substance. Old souls in the young bodies are actually, protectors or body guards to use language of young bodies. The old boring, predictable and routine craving old soul is just stepping in to save the young body from possible harm or worse. Not far from making fool of me in the doctor waiting room, eyeing the tall blond siting across the room, the young body tried to win again. The only safe word or few of them were on the leaflets beside the blond. Cardiac Arrest in bold red letters, STD / STI in another. Who would say that such small words could be the used as passion killer.

Well, what a eureka moment it was, to realize that there are two of them living and trying to control my actions. One of them really paying attention to leaflets in doctor waiting room instead only to those yummy long legs of blond gal.

Nah hold on a second, who are you talking about ? Jaysus everyone know that I am in control for feck sake ! Holly molly LUST  is taking over, better finish typing or the Fifty Shades of Gray will have to be reclassified as children literature.

Ahh shut up, no you shup up, no you…. I’m rather shutting  down the laptop now.

Now I will deal with all four of you, four, five…. Doh who knows, lost count longtime ago….